♥ Monday, November 30, 2009
mood: vexed
music: Ai zai- Fang Da Tong
suddenly i am totally at lost for words, i really hate this personality of gettin jealous so easily, if only things had been simpler, really why did tis kinda thing drag for so many year, okay mayb nt tt many it's been 6 yrs for me, carrying that same feeling......my heart's been smashed for a thousand times, even i can't rmb, it's always the same kind of attitude......only for a few years when we didn't really contact each other, i was able to forget tt terrible feeling, and i had thot i had finally been free from this terrible feeling, but i was wrong, and i only realise after 2 years, tt the feeling had all along been there, just that it's been locked away....if i had the choice, i wished it had been locked forever.......
When i saw all the grad pic, the feelings came back, memories flash like movie films in my head, feelings were reborn again, and seriously you dunno how dissapointed i felt when you said those words, can't believe that i was actually a non-existent to you for 2 years, so wadeva happened during those times meant nth to you i suppose......to me it was really precious......
Where does our relationship stand, i really dunno anymore, just when i thot i was gonna give up, you became nice all of a sudden, changed the nature of course, and finally when i thot i shud treasure it once again, you decided to end everything, seriously sometimes i am so confused with what you are tryin to say, can't you juz be straight forward about everything......
Every now and then, i will subconsciously wait for a phone call that will never come, wait for a message which will nvr come, and as days pass, i get more greedy, seriously i wish this feeling would end soon, maybe someday i might regret nt telling you all these feelings, but i already decided to keep it locked away when the time finally comes.......thanks for everything.......
Love my dardar♥
30.11.09
♥ Saturday, November 28, 2009
mood: in bliss
music: LOVE by brown eyed girl
clubbin was fun, onli a few "dramas" here and there, but i can't believe i woke up late today lar, i swear i got set alarm clock lar, but the beautiful memories will be forever kept in my heart, i noe it's wrong to hold onto something tt dun belong to me, and nvr will, i wonder wad will happen if he found out about my feeling, better not sia, i dun wanna lose a fren, a great fren lolx.......pls let me have sweet dreams tonite =)
Love my dardar♥
28.11.09
♥ Monday, November 23, 2009
mood:tired
music: Goodbye by Jang Geun Suk
Cardiac family day ended, it's great to see Dr Low there, miss him alot, coz he's damn nice, actually all the MO are nice lolx...so glad i am part of the dept lolx....had alot of fun, realli, thou when performin coz i too long no perform in front of ppl, i feel damn shy and nervous, but glad i didn't dance wrongly hahhahaha, it was fun doing make up too.......all ends well, i wonder if next yr i get to go again lolx.....
tmr gg out wif my gfs lolx....miss them lots.....and we're gg SHOPPIN, cc n cl wanna go chop their hair, shud i chop it off too, but can't bear too, lets juz keep it for now lolx.......gg to charge my cam before bed.....
you know sometimes, i seriously dunno wad to say, i feel as if i dunno u anymore, which one is the real you, the one who will always ignore my msg, and wadeva i say or the one who will always ask me wad happen, did something happen when i dun sound okay.......
i hate it when u make me expect more from you, when u know, u can't give wad i really want.....if that's the case....why ask wad i want, when u know u can't really give me wad i want.......so the past few weeks, you're juz pretending to be concern rite........seriously i had totally given up le......but den all of a sudden, u change to someone whom i always wished u would changed to, den after makin me rmb how i felt, juz when i decided to give myself another chance to try, u decided to use a knife and cut rite across my heart...............i really dunno who u are anymore.....
no wonder uncle eric says there's no point in waiting anymore, he's probably forgotten abt the promise also, so wad if he's being nice, there's alot of impt things he forgot.....such a dissapointment..........................................i tink it's best i move on, before more scars are created.
Love my dardar♥
23.11.09
♥ Saturday, October 31, 2009
mood: reminiscing
music: Gentle words by Koda Kumi
hmmm.....while listening to this song, i rmb all my sec sch memories is like a movie playing before my eyes......just celebrated XX de bdae, can't believe i met my bestie there...den we scream, as usual hahahaha, dun care abt our xin xiang, i realli miss those days lar....whr we would just hang at each other house, she'll be listening to my singing, and i'll be awed by her dance move lolx.......i rmb we use to have a stage name hahaha....u noe is like TWINS, but i cant rmb wad we called ourself lolx....it was pretty cool anyway......seriously someday muz drag her to club lolx........i tink we'll be equally crazy.......
of coz rmb my crushes too....unfortunately......sometime i wonder izzit tt the feelings din disappear at all, it's juz tt i was pre-occupied with other things or ppl tt bypass me tt i din realise and hid my feelings underneath lolx......hmmm......suay is coz i am an easily touched person, very easy to sweet talk UNFORTURNATELY lolx......wonder whether izit tis issue tt's affecting how i work.....hmmm.......love the song anyway, jazzy love lolx......
saw this river island dress, i seriously will buy if i try it on lolx......very punkishly cute lolx........but it's 200 bucks, so ex nia, to make it worst, my dad acutally show me an entire page of BOOTS on the paper, of coz onli one of them overshot my "baby" lolx....others all below hahah.a....and great, now i have an image of the complete getup for a club event lolx.....see lar ppl keep temptin me....haiz.....okay....eyes are shutting, lolx......
Love my dardar♥
31.10.09
♥ Thursday, October 01, 2009
mood: tired
music: Hotaru no Hikari (instrumental)-Ikimonogatari
So long nvr blog here lolx......lets start with the weekend....
It was like the most amazing weekend of the year for me, coz i somehow got persuaded by my sister to go watch F1 race with her, den end up i really did enjoy myself, seriously watch live and at home is a big big diff, now i understand why ppl are willing to pay thousands juz to watch it....but of coz i din pay tt much, i pay 188 lolx......got a good seat thanks to Daphane da jie.....we said we would come back next yr again, so i wonder if i shud request for more nights lolx.....juz to earn tt extra allowance hahahah....den get myself a canon dslr cam.....like tt take will be nicer lolx.....so for the first time in my life, i realli saw my idol up close....god he's damn cute.....seriously i regret so for not calling out to his name lar.....coz it's like damn quiet....poor thing, after the race walked thru the circuit......damn cool.......if onli i get to take pic wif him....missed his fan meeting lar....next yr muz go......dun care......but i tink i will cry in front of him bah......so he better turn up next yr..........i am gg to wear his tee lolx....bought it after the race, wanted to buy the official tee but no more T-T........nvm try again next yr........
today went out wif psmc again......ate at waraku.....enjoying our meal till..............suddenly ah bu shout she very giddy, den all of us felt it too......so the first thing i thot was, was it juz me.....coz i already felt it......den after tt called my mom to ask if it was an earthquake, true enuf......it was, she was running to her safety while i called her.....coz simlim tower quite old liao lolx....realli i work part time there before, so i noe....its like realli shaky if u can feel the earthquake.....sumatra kenna again....tt country quite poor thing, once in a while will have this kind of big earthquake, den even sg oso can feel it.....lucky it din happen during f1 last weekend......imagine the quake shakin everyone at their seats, worst still, scali later shake the drivers off the circuit.........
this coming weekend is at suzuka japan.....nak chan's home town.....hopefully he will do well this round......ganbare nak chan!
Love my dardar♥
1.10.09
♥ Monday, June 29, 2009
mood: tired...sleepy~
music: non lolx...
last night le....ganbarimasu...pls let me go thru it peacefully count down 4 more hrs lolx....tahan...muz tahan.....
miss all my frens already...it's monday so everyone back to workin...it's my sd lolx...later gg shoppin wif cc...before tt gg to wd41 to see cute granny...dunno if can be d/c today....hopefully yes lar lolx.......god, pls bless all the auntie at my side to sleep peacefully thruout the night.....thanks lolx...
Love my dardar♥
29.6.09
♥ Sunday, June 21, 2009
mood: tired
music: Just dance by Lady Gaga
onli slept for a freakin 4 hrs....worst den night shift lolx...but can't seem to sleep leh....my dancin mood still lingers lolx...so ystd went for 3rd time clubbing, at first we planned to go butterfac, so all of us met at cityhall/esplanade.....scali is like freakin long q lar, and when i say long, i realli mean it....i bet it was full hse ystd...anyway.....we decided not to q lar....thou haziq and carol and joel dun mind q-ing....lol....but we decided to change club...so kh suggested we go clarke quay since majority of the clubs are situated there, den we walked there....it was fun walkin with ur frens at night in city area, i dun mind lolx.....can talk and make fun of each other without care....if onli life was always this carefree....anyway we were set on nt gg to rebel coz been there like 2 times le...and dunno how many times for the others lolx....but i told them i wanted a club that plays RnB i dun care lolx....sounds like a spoilt brat rite...but serious ar lolx....so walk past alot of pubs....damn cool.....met dian at clarke quay lolx....den eric suggested we got gotham....the name is nice.....since we all dun mind, we head over to see....quite cool....first time i go to a club tt's on the 3rd floor.....it's bigger den rebel and the setting looks so much like how i wan my [DiscotheQue] to look like lar....lolx....inspiration is settin in....so i love the seat we got and our waiter is damn great and nice....so everyone start chilling, and suay me got tap on the glass, so i muz drink it down and the worst thing is....my alcohol tolerance SUCKS lolx....so got a lil tipsy, can't even walk straight lolx....but lucky my frens there lar lolx....den went to the mosh pit to dance, after awhile went back and saw dian n cc n eric n nav KO.....lolx...seriously KO and quite bad oso....but lucky for nav n cc dey got sober after awhile....but eric n dian CMI sia.....so we sent them back home lor.....and dian came to sleep over at my hse...and she's still sleepin, i think is best to let her rest lar....lolx....so i am here slackin lolx....
realli wanna thank the guys that took care of us so much....greatly appreciated...=)
Love my dardar♥
21.6.09
