Aiyo...today after History exam, i went down to the kitchen ( Home econs rm) to look for my teacher. We got back our photographs of thepractical part of our coursework...i muz say mine dun look appealing at all becoz my lasagna looked like chao kway teow lol coz the casserole that i used was too big...haiz nvm below is my presentation for the practical thot that i would scan to show everyone how a bad cook i am and oso to keep as a memorial sake for my clumsyness....





Long Live Ayame...
Sanzo rox....

The title of this post is: I don't want to be alone again. Well why do i say that? That's because all my friends are busy with their D&T project that i can't help but feel lonely...and when i am online there's really no one to talk too...Hey i am not saying that i want everybody to notice me..i understand that they got lots of work to do but the prob is i got nthing to do...well not exactly becoz next week is prelims and i shld be studyin but seriously i have got no motivation to start at all! oh wad am i gonna do...i dun wanna cry at the end when i get back my results T.T Anyway...i feel like sleepin now...dunno why now these days i am getting more tired day by day.....oh and ainotenshi is currently on hiatus coz i got no time to maintain it...gotta study...

Oh yeah...my life now is topsy-turvy now...firstly i got absolute no mood to study when my love life is in a total mess....this stupid...dumb...idiotic...bimbo...hectic crush of mine have been going on for like 2 years...and now i seriously dunno where i am...my heart is totally confuse and won't listen to my brain for god knows why reasons...and i am seriously goin bonkers abt it...u see i am starting to have dreams abt my crush which is YUCK!!! coz doesn't tis mean obssesion...ewwwwww.....this is making myself thinkin as if i am some kind of stalker or wad....i am goin crazy soon....1 min i can be head over heels of him and the next all the crude and hatred i have for him juz pours out like never-ending running tap water....why the hell am i having this kind of feelins...pls god or anyone up there give me hints or teach me how should i walk my life now coz i am blinded by love and darkness...that's why i say love sucks coz they can cause troublesome problems which i think is definitely unecessary for a 17 yr old like me!Moreover..it's a total waste of time to have one-sided love...but why can't i stop fallin in love...haiz....

Long Live Ayame
Sanzo rox
こんばんは

Hey lately i haf got a new jap band that i have been idolising. HOME MADE 家族(Kazoku)...their song is realli nice k especially the song 少年ハート(Shounen Heart)...i like the trumpet/Sax instrumental bg effect...it sounds like dancing in the pub....man...I haven heard abt Orange Range lately...i love their song alot...heard abt them thru watching NARUTO coz they sang Viva Rocks-4th ed theme...next song i haf heard is Asterisk-Bleach 1st op...the rap is damn nice...and i have been chasing them ever since....anyway been thinking alot lately...coz my best friend is treating very cold towards me tis few days...i dunno whether i slipped something that shouldn't be, out of my mouth or izzit that i am getting a stab in the back by her. It's not that i wanna get supicious about her...i seriously trust her alot becoz she's been very helpful to me and yet i can't do anything to help her when she needs it, be it studies or other personal things....due to constriants and maybe fears i don't noe wad i can do to help her and i feel very guilty...i dunno whether is it she change or izzit me....but i am realli scared that i will get stab in the back by my best friend becoz i have been thru once b4 and i dun wanna experience it again...thinkin abt it, i feel like crying...izzit that i am so annoyin that i get on other people's nerves...if that's the case i rather be isolated from the class, the crowd....being alone will be a better choice because like that i won't get hurt or hurt other people... (learn from Mawata from pretear...guess i watched too much anime =p)I belive in this kind of saying....maybe i am realli a nuisiance....i dun feel like tokin to anyone except my family....i dun feel like having any friends now...coz when friendships are concerned, it, to me can coz alot of unecessary things....friendship turns a person soft-hearted and i think that is one of the unecessary things u nid, to survive in the society....dun you think so?

Long Live Ayame.....
Sanzo Rocks........
Oyasuminasai Minna......