The title of this post is: I don't want to be alone again. Well why do i say that? That's because all my friends are busy with their D&T project that i can't help but feel lonely...and when i am online there's really no one to talk too...Hey i am not saying that i want everybody to notice me..i understand that they got lots of work to do but the prob is i got nthing to do...well not exactly becoz next week is prelims and i shld be studyin but seriously i have got no motivation to start at all! oh wad am i gonna do...i dun wanna cry at the end when i get back my results T.T Anyway...i feel like sleepin now...dunno why now these days i am getting more tired day by day.....oh and ainotenshi is currently on hiatus coz i got no time to maintain it...gotta study...

Oh yeah...my life now is topsy-turvy now...firstly i got absolute no mood to study when my love life is in a total mess....this stupid...dumb...idiotic...bimbo...hectic crush of mine have been going on for like 2 years...and now i seriously dunno where i am...my heart is totally confuse and won't listen to my brain for god knows why reasons...and i am seriously goin bonkers abt it...u see i am starting to have dreams abt my crush which is YUCK!!! coz doesn't tis mean obssesion...ewwwwww.....this is making myself thinkin as if i am some kind of stalker or wad....i am goin crazy soon....1 min i can be head over heels of him and the next all the crude and hatred i have for him juz pours out like never-ending running tap water....why the hell am i having this kind of feelins...pls god or anyone up there give me hints or teach me how should i walk my life now coz i am blinded by love and darkness...that's why i say love sucks coz they can cause troublesome problems which i think is definitely unecessary for a 17 yr old like me!Moreover..it's a total waste of time to have one-sided love...but why can't i stop fallin in love...haiz....

Long Live Ayame
Sanzo rox
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