Mood: fed-up/pissed off
Music: She's all mine-Kusano Hironori

I seriously hate my poly life. All my supposely "friends" treats me like i don't exist. I ask them one question can ask for like 5 mins coz no one wants to answer me. so i find myself talking to the wall. I mean how typical can a person be. Like today ask them whether they wanna skip lecture coz another friend of mine is waiting for the whole lot of us, no one even care to atleast answer yes or no. Is that so hard just to answer this simple question? And when i say i getting married next week then everyone turns their attention to me...what the fuck lor...does that means i haf to say something exaggerating then i can get ppl to ask my question. Or is it they think my question can be answerable by common sense, okay fine they sorry lor i admit my common sense and IQ is lower than all of you people. Seriously sometimes i dun even noe whether to trust their words or not, i dunno them well yet. Maybe i am annoying and irritating lar hor then sorry lar just tell me i will stop bothering you people. Next time if i got any question dun worry i will DEFINITELY not ask you people. If i have to find out the answer myself then be it. Also some of the lecturers i find, they just can't be borthered. Especially the teacher in MIC and FON. One keeps saying everything will upload in MeL while the other say everything is in ur textbook. If like that be lecturer, then i can oso be one lar, juz say the same thing as they say lor! Damn fucking pissed off now! What i am feeling now is like I find myself a burden and useless lor. I dun even know why i exist in the first place! There's no one in my life, that finds me useful and feels that I can independent on my own lor. Not even my parents, sure they dotes on me, but whenever i say i can do many things on my own if i want to, they dun trust me. Besides i am too tired to prove anything liao coz it's just useless and wasting my time lor. I can seriously die anytime now, even if i go out and get knock down by a car, the most people cry 2-3 days then that's it, they just live as per normal, I bet some of them won't even feel sad so u see my life is meaningless and if anyone wants to take my life, by all means go ahead, i dun give a fucking damn!

Mood: So-SO
Music:I・ZA・NA・I・ZU・KI-NEWS

Well, today, I got my nurse uniform lol, looks quite big to me leh thou it's M size lolx...

Common Test Next week le so must study liao if not fail then die lolx....waiiiii i love NEWS album. Yeah i am still bragging about it whether u like it or not hais. Next, i went to the library to borrow a Japanese-English dictionary so that i can finsih my Japanese novel. Yes, you didn't read wrong, i got 3 Jap novels tt i haf yet to complete, why? coz my best friend, Fiona bought it for me as burfdae present. That was 2 years ago and you must be wonderin why i still haven finish readin it. That is beacause: 1) My jap totally sucks lolx 2) The whole is practically in Jap, including Kanji which atleast there's half i dun even noe how to read, less than understanding it. So now, i am goin to try read the novel. Oh btw, the title of this great novel is [Gan Saku Yuugi]. I like the cover quite nice leh lolx...

Next up, my life is confusing now, not onli i had to cope with my studies but now i dunno who i realli like, aiyo, why can't i get into a gal sch (funny rite, a gal poly weird thou). I dun wanna fall for anyone in NP coz i dunno why oso lah, just dun want to. So i am quite fed-up, i must read alot of book. Engross myself in bks then i wouldn't think so much oso...yah, i think i'll just do that!

Long Live Ayame...
Sanzo rocks...
Masuda rocks...
Miyavi rocks...
Kusano rocks...

Mood: High
Music: Akaku Moyuru Taiyou-NEWS

OMG!!!!! My dad bought the NEWS album for me!!! The members all so cute wan >.< especially Massu and Kusano...my fav members. Then again, Shigeaki oso not bad coz once he dressed up as a geisha and OMG he's so cute lor lol...especially when ppl call him "Shigeakiko" haha!!!

Yesterday went to watch Da Vinci Code with Jac, my god the show is so damn nice, wish i could watch it again, something i dun understand thou is abt Mary Magdalene lolx nvm tml ask my friend can liao....

Then i still catching the comic Ouran High School Host club!!!! Book 8 out liao but Taiwan ver. I wan Chuang yi wan coz cheaper somemore free mini posters lol....call me cheapskate but those pic are nice!!!!

Then tonite must study sociology before i go to bed coz tml got test...hope i do as well as my psychology haha =p Oh then tml collecting my NURSE UNIFORM....common test comming soon!!!GANBARIMASU!!!!!!!

Long Live Ayame...
Sanzo rocks....
Massu rocks...
Miyavi rocks...
Kusano rocks...

28.5.06
Yours truly.

Mood: Happy
Music: Koi no tsubomi-Koda Kumi

Hahaha it's me again...Well quite obvious isn't it since it's my blog....anyway yesterday bought shoes that's needed for clinical attachment, hush puppies...weeeeeeee...so comfy >.<

Anyway I oso found out frm MIC that Kissing is another direct way of transferring micro-organisms so cannot kiss lol....now i look back i dun realli regret commin into nursing lar coz things can be interesting if u can twist the facts in one way or another.....hehe

Long Live Ayame...
Sanzo rocks
Miyavi rocks
Masuda rocks
Kusano rocks

Mood: So so
Music:Kakan-Amano Tsukiko

I didn't get to blog yesterday. I refer the "exciting" as from yesterday. Wow, yesterday in NSL, i was previledged to be nurse by my friends. We were learning how to do Oral Hygiene and Eye toilet to patients who are unconcious, so i played the patient of coz, hehe i am to lazy lol. Anyway it was quite fun, then in the afternoon went back home since got 4 hrs interval. When i got back to school walk with all the P07 peeps but wad scary was when took the lift at blk 34 to get to the shelter at blk 38, we almost got stuck in it, all of us in there were girls not a single guy lol so everyone of us were like OMG! Not now! the lift went abit haywired, it got stuck in between level2 n 3 i guess and there was tis alarm goin off we were like keep pressin the alarm and in my mind i was thinking wad if the lift juz fall, will i die? I know abit exaggeratin but it's scary lor. Finally the lift door open at lvl 2 dunno why oso lol, we didn't dare to risk again so juz walked up one level, then made our way to LT38 for the AAP lect. Got a quiz and i still failed though i realli did studied for it. I guess i didn't quite understand the question so got all the facts wrong.
Anyway, nidda still studying common test is in 3 weeks so muz pass the modules. GANBARIMASU >.<
During JTC, watched FMA movie until about 8 plus then went home so reached home at almost 9 lol so scary didn't dare to walk the dark street alone...I think that's all lol

Long Live Ayame
Sanzo rocks
Miyavi rocks
Masuda rocks
NEWS rocks

So long never realli post liao haha. Anyway, i am beginning to adapt my poly life, not so bad lar thought i am studyin a course which i dun realli like but the people there are nice. I still miss my secondary school friends. Oh yeah my purpose of tis post is to scold people haha....seriously i enjoy my sec sch life partly coz the ppl are more MATURED than the people in POLY! I am not referring to my nursing coursemate. Is it so fun calling people names? n to think tt u are suppose to be a young adult and should noe ur limits, for god's sake are these people lower intellect or beyond retardation dun they understand human nature that every single one of us has a limit to everything? If they still dun understand then i think they are seriously BEYOND RETARDATION! So rude lor i oso haf name wan....i hate tis CHILDISH! PREMATURES!LAMERS! and not to mention, it's damn fu*kin IRRITATIN!

Okay good! my anger all vent out liao, sometimes i realli wish to scold them in person! Juz coz i dun say anything doesn't mean i am fine with it lor! But i haf no right to scold bah mouth is theirs not mine....sad sia....i better change subject of post if not i scared i will say somethin that i shldn't say!

My shoppin list:
1) Mother's Day gift
2)NEWS album-Touch
3) Ouran High School Host Club bk 1-7

Okay i nid to get Mothers' Day gift first! coz it's like tml!

Sanzo rocks
Miyavi rocks
Masuda rocks

tired

lost of communication

misunderstanding

my life sucks