Mood: fed-up/pissed off
Music: She's all mine-Kusano Hironori

I seriously hate my poly life. All my supposely "friends" treats me like i don't exist. I ask them one question can ask for like 5 mins coz no one wants to answer me. so i find myself talking to the wall. I mean how typical can a person be. Like today ask them whether they wanna skip lecture coz another friend of mine is waiting for the whole lot of us, no one even care to atleast answer yes or no. Is that so hard just to answer this simple question? And when i say i getting married next week then everyone turns their attention to me...what the fuck lor...does that means i haf to say something exaggerating then i can get ppl to ask my question. Or is it they think my question can be answerable by common sense, okay fine they sorry lor i admit my common sense and IQ is lower than all of you people. Seriously sometimes i dun even noe whether to trust their words or not, i dunno them well yet. Maybe i am annoying and irritating lar hor then sorry lar just tell me i will stop bothering you people. Next time if i got any question dun worry i will DEFINITELY not ask you people. If i have to find out the answer myself then be it. Also some of the lecturers i find, they just can't be borthered. Especially the teacher in MIC and FON. One keeps saying everything will upload in MeL while the other say everything is in ur textbook. If like that be lecturer, then i can oso be one lar, juz say the same thing as they say lor! Damn fucking pissed off now! What i am feeling now is like I find myself a burden and useless lor. I dun even know why i exist in the first place! There's no one in my life, that finds me useful and feels that I can independent on my own lor. Not even my parents, sure they dotes on me, but whenever i say i can do many things on my own if i want to, they dun trust me. Besides i am too tired to prove anything liao coz it's just useless and wasting my time lor. I can seriously die anytime now, even if i go out and get knock down by a car, the most people cry 2-3 days then that's it, they just live as per normal, I bet some of them won't even feel sad so u see my life is meaningless and if anyone wants to take my life, by all means go ahead, i dun give a fucking damn!