mood: tired and annoyed
music:Filth in the beauty by Gazette

Well...this song makes me feel better...suits my mood now...anyway..today is granddad's bdae so got a family gathering...too bad "yunho" didn't came coz he got duty lolx...ppl serving NS now lolx...anyway i was realli sian...coz last time went my aunt's office to work as part-time..and I suppose i accidentally misplace something...and that thing cannot be found now...so the whole dinner i didn't eat much and my aunt said something bad behind my back...say i daydream during at work...juz coz i left alot of drawings behind...MY GOD...that kind of drawing dun even take more than 5 minutes lor...whatever...realli pissing me off...i got do work wan lor...anyway...i guess aunts normally exaggerates stuff...then came home my mom nag at me...at the eating house...my dad nag at me....haiz....wad a GREAT day i haf....and in the morning...woke up early...that's wad happens today...i spent the whole afternoon watching D.Gray-man....can't helped it since i collect the manga...

Well....seriously i learn a very important lesson...looks can be deceiving and people can be real fake...they pretend to be nice to you...but behind ur back....they are actually stabbing you....i got a confession to make here...ever since i entered poly...i dun trust people that easily...i dunno why...i find people really fake...when people said all the nice things they said to you...do they REALLY mean it...I dunno anymore...the present me believe that if u trust people the more hurt u'll get...lately...my SD crzy over Pretear and they said i will play the character Takako...well i guess i realli love this character...she can hurt people w/o feeling guilty...and she lives in darkness....but she's more lucky than me...atleast she got someone to pull her out of darkness...unlike me....when i fall into darkness...no one can and no one will ever rescue me....ppl think i am always cheerful...true...in sec sch...i smile real smiles...but in poly..not anymore....people are realistic there....so it's best if i keep myself in darkness...that way i won't accidentally hurt people...and i won't get hurt...this is wad Mawata said in pretear...i totally agree with her....so from now on...i am gonna close my heart to everyone...because everytime i open...there's bound to be someone out there who will juz grab it and smash it hard....my heart cannot heal anymore...so might as well keep it...i dun believe in love or wad so eva liao....but i still love TORA...lolx...

Today...i drew 5 chibi version of Alice nine lolx...for some reason...I find Saga's drawing the prettiest lol and Tora's cutest...lolx...anyway till then I LOVE TORA!!!!!and ALICE NINE!!!!!!!