mood: so sad i feel like crying....
music: I remember by Keyshia Cole

okay, tis post is all my unreasonable ranting.....ignore it if u can't take it........
i noe i become more n more unreasonable......

today was suppose to be our 7th mth.....shud be a happy occasion rite, but my feelings n pride just got step on by the person i love the most.........

really today started with a happy n cheerful mood, eventhou i noe he might not turn up, there's a lil hope there in my heart that he'll turn up, and in the end, even thou he told me he's nt coming, he still turn up......which i am so grateful for it...den we went shopping......den we took train back home....den he had to make tt stupid joke, seriously i can tolerate all kinds of joke tt he made, even those whr he'll compare me with other girls, nt tt he does it alot, or those tt show his cassa personality......but pls dun joke on something tt i've work hard for, it makes it as if, no matter how much i do, is not enuf.......i noe i am nt the prettiest, but i try my best to be pretty for him.......

though i noe in the end he felt guilty, but i seriously can't handle it.......my only reason to become pretty has been destroyed, so wad do i do now......i wonder whr i got all the patience to tolerate this.........i noe i have become very unreasonable, but now i realise there's no moer reason for me to put make up anymore, really i can't find the reason for it.........he keep tellin me to him i'm pretty no matter with or without, but i seriously dunno if i shud believe it or nt......

i mean seriously is there any boyfriend tt will make a joke targetting their own girl's look? am i overreacting...i seriously dunno...............

now i juz feel like crying myself to sleep, dun feel like talking to him, dun feel like see-ing him, i bet he doesn't even noe i am not feeling okay even thou i said it's fine....coz i dun wan him to feel sad, if it's being sad, one person feelin sad is enuf, so let me handle this by myself......

maybe i shudn't put make up when i go out with him anymore, coz he'll just make fun of it.....