mood:dissapointed
music: nil
seriously i wonder if it's the pms thingy again, having mood swings again...so tired of it......the reason why i am emo is coz, i just realise all these days i have spend with him, half the time he is slpin....

i still remember the time when it was nearin my al, i so darn look forward to everything, like maybe we could do something different, but seriously, i wonder if i am demandin too much, on monday we went back to my hse damn late...coz helpin at his mom shop which was quite cool.....den come tues mornin we went running...which i only ran for 5 mins LOL...coz realli, i am juz nt a running person....den went back cook chicken rice, den went town, den went back, oh and btw he slept at my hse from 1 plus and we onli left my hse at 5pm....realli for tt time i felt as if i got no life, no freedom......and den came wed, and i thot like since he said we could leave his hse early, we could finally do something diff, but nah.....we a/c our good fren to the a&e, den wanted to go ladies nite, but ppl ditch us last min, so end up walk around den home, den come today, ate brunch, and we to my seminar, and nw i am here, so all i am left with is the F1 weekend......and nw i juz realise i wasted the entire AL doing nth at all but slp wake eat and slp with the bf, it's nt tt i dun enjoy his company i do but i was expecting something more out of it....is tt too demanding?.....

On a peaceful and cooling night like this, i can't help it but remember how far we have come....realli....i still remember it all started with Carol Chan's birthday chalet.....

To speak truthfully, thou he once said i din notice he was lookin at me all this time, but on tt day itself, i felt something from him actually....thou is Carol chan (CC) bdae, but all the members of PSMC were frantically tryin to complete the bdae gift for our jumi chan, which happens to be way overdue lolx (her bdae being in nov, n cc's being in dec)....so yep.....and once in a while, i can catch him staring at me, but when i ask wad, he'll juz smile n shake his head....lol...i was totally oblivious....coz we're like good friends lolx.....

As usual, all celebration comes to an end, i had work the following day, so i had to leave first =(....den dey msg me sayin dey were playin truth or dare...so envy...coz i wanted to be there too...but since i was turnin in, i told cc to tell me all abt it the next day....which she did....and i heard a confession lolx.....wad dey ask? i am nt surprise all qn were targeted at khalis, dey ask me things like does he ever think abt me more den a fren, since dey are tryin to pair me n him up lolx.....end up is nth lolx.....so who's the next target? the nice cassanova lolx.....i am nt surprise, coz i oso wanna noe why he treats me so nice, is like he doesn't even treat the other of my girls tt nice.....so with cc help, (tt ger understands my feelings) lolx....she help me ask if he likes me more den a fren, cc said he tried changing subject, but end up being force to a corner hahhaha....den he finally said ya lolx.....

so it wasn't till 2 days later after the celebration, did he msg me, whether i heard abt the game, i told him i heard atleast 3/4 of it....so he just ask wad are my thots of dating a cassanova....at first i thot dating is like how me n sammy will juz hang out tt kinda thing, but when i further qn him, is actually dating like really couple kinda dating....so i juz said i dun mind tryin, i did had a crush on him previously, and since i haven got into a relationship b4, it's a first, so i wanna try =).....but of coz i din ans him till the next day, i bet he felt nervous waiting lolx.....

Ironically the following day we actually msg each other at the same time lolx.....so that followin evening he came all the way to see me.....i still rmb he said hi, it was realli awkward for me at first, coz i was thinkin, my god, this guy infront of me nw is my bf lolx....so we decided to take a stroll, den i was like walkin bside him when he said, u can hold my hand nw HAHAHAHA....he's darn cute......and den our love started from there....everyday the feeling just gets stronger n stronger.....it's like we're almost inseperable now, everything is so natural....thou i noe i shudn't say tis here, the first time we kissed was awkward too, coz we both were equally nervous, there's alot of sweet memories, i use to complain he's always attacking my cheek, the first time was in a club when no one were staring, den he ask why i din give him one back, tt's the first time i kiss a guy other den my family's men lolx......

i hope 10 yrs or 20 yrs down the road, if we still stay together, marriage, children, i would definitely tell them this story =D