mood: moody
music: na

I misses his smile the most, it had been better before he started school. Yeobo will always smile, even if he's shy in front of my cam, he'll still try his best to smile...nowadays i dun see that anymore. All the quarrel and fights are getting more and more often. I wanna be his pillar of strength but what can i do, NOTHING.

I wanna see him so badly, but I CANNOT.

I know things have changed, and it might not go back to the good old days anymore...everytime i tell him i misses his smile, he'll just answer, really?

When i call him just cause i wanna hear his voice, he says less than 20 words and then he'll end the call with: "dear, i needa go, I needa hang up now."

What is going on? The time spent is getting lesser and lesser, or unless I'm more demanding now...

I dun ask for much, i juz wanna see his genuine smile again, how hard can it be? Trust me, in my situation it's HARD....